Mar 27, 2021
The high level narcissist with extraordinary charm, allure and irresistibility, glides through his/her days like a member of royalty. . There is a special vibration that the high level possesses that is challenging to define. When you are in th presence of certain high level you feel so good. There is an excitement that moves throughout your body/mind in the presence of a particularly gifted high level narcissist. The eyes of the high level almost embrace you, giving off an air of seduction. Some feel an immediate attachment to these high level narcissist.
For many years you played your role of partner and spouse to the high level narcissist, knowing he/she was psychologically toxic. You go through a series of defined now familiar patterns beginning with the spellbound days of thrills, magic excitement and awe; then the resumption of rifts with the exposure of new lies and betrayals; coming to the edge of separation from this impossible conundrum of a relationship.
You are now full circle and heavy with exceptional exhaustion. In the past you jacked yourself up with coffee, plunged into exercise, distracted yourself with fantasies and fancies. The tricks have worn thin; they don't work anymore.
One woman described her impossible states as she screamed: "I can't take one more step. Brushing my teeth wears me out. I fall into bed exhausted but in the middle of the night I stare at the ceiling for hours in severe distress and worry. My nerves are always ragged and frayed despite my extreme fatigue."
The high level narcissist preys on your weaknesses, your sense of inappropriate guilt, your need to over extend yourself to others.
Deep inside this time you pay attention to the voice of wisdom, your intuition that tells you to leave this highly abuse relationship, that this is your time of transformation. You deserve respite, rest, solitude, calmness, listening to the voice of your unique creativity and a grounded sense of self entitlement