Dec 31, 2020
You grew up as a child of maternal deprivation. Your mother's presence was neither loving nor protective. Early on you knew that Narcissistic Mama (or Mothering Figure) couldn't stand your presence, even as a little child.
Psychiatrist and researcher Dr. John Bowlby created the term Maternal Deprivation to describe a mother's lack of attachment and warmth toward her child communicated as cold dismissiveness and lack of empathy.
As adult some of these children feel guilt and shame, a deep sense of unease for being imperfect and letting mother down.
As babies they looked into their mother's eyes and discovered a void--a cold uncaring, dismissive "don't come near me" revulsion.
Enter the high level nrcissist, infused with magnetic charm, command of self, energetic, self-confident, charismatic. Children of narcissistic mothers become entrance with the high level narcissist.
Marriage and partnership with the high level narcissist is exciting in the beginning.
After a short period of time the narcissistic partner reveals their cruel, demanding, manipulative side. You are the object of cruel, obnoxious projections, frequently in private behind closed doors.
You feel anxious, jumpy, waiting for the next volley of insults and recriminations...Why do you tolerate this kind of treatment?
You were traumatized as a small child and now you are being -re-traumatized by your narcissistic spouse.
This is your time and opportunity for awakening to the true nature of the high level narcissist.
You become clear that you will move forward along your own pathway of recovery, transformation and the continued evolution of your true self.
Along the way you learn to be self entitled, deserving of inner peace, worthy of trust and warmth, the full use of your creative gifts.
Practice self care: rest, sleep, movement/exercise, food, hydration, Nature.